Thursday, May 26, 2011

Time flies...

So where does the time go...?  It is now the end of May and it's been a month since I last posted again.  There are reasons for this. 
Last year was a big year for our family.  We moved from our home of 18 years to a new and different "world".  As I have learned over the last year, we lived in a little utopia.  Everyone it seemed was a friend, the parents all had the same values and beliefs, the kids were well behaved, respectful, and happy, we had easy access to bike trails that took us anywhere we wanted to go, and a small suburb of a larger town that both had very little crime.  We miss it...a lot. 
Sometimes it's a bit too much and it's hard for me to write.  Being down is something I don't have a lot of experience with.  I have always been a very positive person and been able to see the proverbial glass half full and not half empty.  But this has been rough. 
I have not been myself.  I hope to get back to myself soon. 
The other thing I have realized was the minute I had followers the desire to blog disappeared.  This is very strange because this is what I so wanted from the day I started blogging.  I wanted people to read my blog, like it, and comment about it...everyday.  The minute you all did that was the minute I didn't want to do it anymore. 
Thanks to Oprah's finale yesterday, I think the problem was I felt I didn't have anything worthy to say and the validation I was receiving from you was not deserved. (What are we all going to do without Oprah?!)

I have said before that I want to use this blog as a place to share with friends and family, as if we are sitting on the couch just sharing our lives, the good stuff and the bad.   


Mom said...

Thanks sweetie - it's hard to be honest with ourselves isn't it. We are so proud of you.

Anonymous said...

I'm glad you're back. I watched that Oprah episode too. My takeaway was that you are in charge of your own energy and so is everyone else. Your positive energy wil come back to you, I know it! Love you, Lori